Drinking

There have been times (and this is one of them)
I could have started drinking - and I should,
Because I think that all my problems stem
From too much self-control. The things I would,
If all were as I wish it could be, do
Are left behind because I do not dare;
To drink, therefore, is cure and solace too,
Because it makes me feel like I don't care,
And so I find I act that way as well.
Thus have I proven that I ought to drink,
And yet I do not. Why? I cannot tell,
Unless because I really like to think,
And thinking is not helped by alcohol;
Therefore, alas, I do not drink at all.